2 weeks with a 5 year old son!

              It's been 2 weeks since Tristen has became a part of our family. It has been one the hardest most exciting thing that has ever happened in my life. I love this little boy with every fiber in my body. Everyday poses new challenges of being parents to a 5 year old; but at the end of the day I am just glad we all made it that day alive! A little update on Tristen: He sees his mom once a week, Skype with his dad once a week, and has counseling once a week.  This little boy is on emotional over load! Saying that, him visiting his mom is the hardest thing for him and me! We also just found out he has to have a phone conversation with his mom every Thursday night before he sees her on Fridays. I understand the she wants him back and things but he can't handle all the emotional days/nights. I told Tristen this last night, I said, "Tristen, you are the bravest person I know, you are so courageous!" He just looked at me like I had 5 eye balls. lol He now goes to our preschool and loves it! He is learning so fast and seems to be interested in learning. Please keep Tristen in your prayers! Now, onto me and Ryan: I spend most of my days doing dishes, laundry, or playing! I wouldn't trade it for the world! Ryan is having a blast having a boy in the house! I am also an emotional wreck. I can't seem to grasp the fact that a mother and a son have to have a once a week relationship. Tristen isn't even my flesh and blood and I couldn't imagine not seeing him everyday! We pray for his mom daily, we pray that she gets the help she needs, and can gain custody of Tristen again! I didn't think that I would feel like I wanted the kids to go back to the neglect, but when Tristen screams and cries for his mom, all I want to do is take him to her! This poor little boy worries too much about his mom and about whether or not he will be going back to her. That isn't something a boy his age she even be thinking about. He sees his mom on Fridays and I can't help but be sad. I am heartbroken for two reasons: 1. I want him to not hurt anymore! 2. He basically wants nothing to do with me when he comes back. I know that I am not his mom; but I give my time, money, and energy taking care of him and all she has to do is meet at DSS with toys. That is my biggest struggle right now. Please pray for me and my emotions and that I will keep them in check when Tristen is around. Tristen loves church and loves Covenant Church family! We thank you for welcoming him into our home and our church! 




These are flowers Ryan and Tristen picked out for me this week!